This summer has been a real eye opener for me. I thought I had just gained weight (a lot of weight) in the past two years but I was so wrong. About three weeks ago I got really sick. My stomach hurt so much I couldn't move. I just lied on the hospital floor and threw up all over the place. After four days of suffering the doctors discovered a huge tumour in my stomach. It weighted 22,2 kilos. It wasn't cancer or anything, but it was fucking painful. I was operated in Helsinki and as soon as I woke up the pain was gone.
Now I'm recovering and feeling so much better. It was like an ultimate weight loss!:D
Yesterday I met my best friends for the first time in a VERY long time altough they live only 20 km away and we had a blast. I miss them already. This whole experience made me really think about my life and how lucky I am. I know it's a kliche to say that but it's true. The tumour could have been cancer but it wasn't. I've been recovering really fast from the operation but that's also a thing I consider to be just good luck. The operation went well, I'm alive and I didn't have any side effects. The doctors couldn't even get my upper-lip pearcing off so I didn't loose it:D
I hope this experience has a meaning, I hope I have enough strength now to change my life into something better, if it's possible, and I really hope that I get to spend the rest of my life with the people I love.

Have a super-great autumn everybody, I know I will!:)
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( Jul. 9th, 2009 10:26 am)
Yesterday I got the results from those schools I had applied into, and it seems I wont be studying next year:( It sucks. I was sad for a while but then I started thinking all those things I could be doing instead. I could loose some weight, I could study foreign languages, paint, sing, read a lot, write, travel......

World is our playground.
Hey there, everybody! I should really be in bed right now but this damn mini-portable is so addictive!
I'm a little bit confused at the moment. For the first time in my life I have NO idea where I'll be next fall. I've applied into two different schools, University of Helsinki(anthropology) and Lahti University of applied sciences(environmental planning). I'm pretty sure I have no chance what so ever to make it into the first one, and I'm kinda counting on Lahti. But if I don't make it to either one I'm in trouble. To get a job instead is the last thing I want to do now:P
I already searched for au-pair -jobs on the internet. First I thought it would be nice to go to Ireland or Britain for a year, but then I started doubting myself. I'm gonna get homesick on the first week anyway, and then there's this little thing called my current apartment. I really had to fight for this and I've been living here for only a year. I have so much stuff that I wouldn't know what to do with it!
I would miss my friends and my family too much. But still it is tempting to think that I could just leave everything behind for one year and see what life is like on the other side of the fence.

Houston, we have a problem.
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( Jun. 25th, 2009 09:56 am)
Yay! I got a job-offer from the Vesijärvi-organisation. Vesijärvi is a well-know lake here in Lahti and the Vesijärvi-organisation helps to improve it's lousy condition caused by huge masses of blue-green alga and eutrophication.
My former teacher Lauri offered me the job, he works also in the organisation. (He's really adorable! All the girls at school had a tiny crush on him:D) So today I'm going to see him in Lahti.

I should really go out now and get some more tan. See ya!
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( Jun. 24th, 2009 12:30 pm)
I re-descovered Northern Kings today and I've been listening to them all morning. As soon as I woke up I had a walk and tried to rush home before it got too hot. This week has been nice and warm (27'C) and I hope it's going to last as long as possible.

Today I'll probably visit my mom and dad and have dinner with them. I think they are finally on the edge of divorce, and -sad but true- I've been waiting it to happen for a long time now. My mom is going to be a lot happier after it happens.

It's been really hard to handle this summer vacation like a normal, stressed-because-of-the-school -people do, since I haven't seen my friends as often as I did in school. I gratuated this spring so that was basically it. My best friend still has one year to go and I have to continue my life and studies somewhere else. So, it's been really lonely and hard. For the first time in my life I felt that school was my life.

That's about it for today. Maybe I'll write some more later. Who knows.
So, I finally made my decision and decided to do this in english. It might just be that my english-skills are covered under a thousand pounds of dust, but hey, practise makes perfect? I dunno. I already have one journal in finnish so this is going to be a nice challenge for me.
Since this is my first post here, I want to tell you about myself. I'm a 22 year-old girl from southern Finland. I have strawberry-blond hair and green eyes. I'm short, only 158cm but I have persistence:D My occupation is an environmental operative, but I'm unemployed at the moment. I don't really care because I have decided to continue my studies as long as possible.
I'm into anthropology, marine biology and history. I love singing, listening to music, writing, reading, drawing and watching movies and documentaries.
I've been interested in different kinds of peoples since I was a child; their culture and ways of life, so that must be the reason why anthropology is important to me. I also love to observe those who are close to me: how they make their decisions in life and why.

My friends are all very humorous, loud, sarcastic and real, just like me. I don't appreciate people who are racists, humourless, blunt or egoistic since I just want to have fun without stressing out about everything. I don't believe in god and I don't believe in people who do. I've had my share of crazy religious people. I don't like people who don't own any opinions or guts, you can't have any good conversations with them.

Yeah, that's about it for today. I'm feeling kinda hungry so I think I'm gonna go and find me some food. Later I think I should find me some more dw-friends also:D
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